The truth of the examiners.
Beware of examiners.
And who are they?
Those are the gravediggers of dreams, the castrators of wills, and the modern slavers of souls—beings of double standards which apply the Judeo-Christian culture of receiving and forget the gospel of giving.
But they evangelize so that the other -always the other- submit to their will.
The examiners take your patience to unsuspected limits and try to know your exact fusion point to melt you. They will tell you phrases like “If I’m hard, it’s for your good” or “Don’t you see that pressure turns coal into a diamond.”
But they don’t want you to grow carats; they want to use you as vegetable fuel.
They are those who cut off your conversations when you tell them a problem with a “like everyone else,” diminishing the value of your problems. But when they have one, they can go on for days about it.
Moral: their problems matter; yours do not. Because you are only worth serving your examiner, not telling them your things.
The examiners use guilt as a coping mechanism.
And what do they defend themselves against?
Well, from reality, and for that, they use you as a shield.
Examiners rule their daily lives with an iron fist, using arrogance as their baton of command.
They use the social ties of dependence, whether work, personal, or family, to impose their law.
Examiners always use the same trick, “emotional intermittency.” Now I listen to you; now I don’t. Now I get angry; now I don’t. Now I give you one lime, now twenty sand.
They are attention dealers. And they know how to choose their victims well. They will try to turn you into a junkie for their approval. Never forget.
The examiners spend the day testing you to see if you have faded if your loyalty to them is sectarian, or if they still have to damage you more to make you live by and for them.
The examiners know everything. Those who go to the hospital know how to cure better than the nurse. Those who go for a coffee know how to make it better than the waiter. When they go to NASA, they know how to handle rockets better than Neil Armstrong.
And therefore, they criticize everything and complain about everything.
They don’t give a damn if something goes as they want it to if they don’t take the lead. It angers them not to be the child at the baptism, the bride at the wedding, or the dead at the burial. They have to be the center; if they don’t, they leave you out.
The problem with this kind of people is that the side effects of their guilt injections are excruciating.
A person widely exposed to examiners will be eager to escape and end up with the first one who gives them a little love.
Even if it’s not love, it’s enough to make it look like love. Because comparisons are odious. And when you are under constant pressure from an examiner, any person seems like a paradise, leading you to walk through too many hells.
It is common to find people with shitty childhoods who end up with horrible people who take advantage of the opportunity.
Ultimately, if you allow an examiner to control you and remove your freedom, you end up with horrible people sooner or later.
So do yourself a favor and be true to yourself. Don’t allow yourself to be manipulated.
A virtual hug
AG